reality check

its only until the final semester of my year 3 that i started thinking about my future.
maybe its ’cause of the fact that im graduating soon. and it really suck. ’cause its like a reality check each time you look through recruit and job searching websites.
i do not know what i want in future. maybe thats why even though i told myself earlier on that i will just try for cabin crew and if i cant get in too bad.but now, im thinking of going for a second try. ’cause i really have no idea what i want.
it like a diploma graduate is being paid $1600 and degree graduate is $1800 as starting pay. after deducting cpf, the pathetic amount of bring home pay is like $1400 and $1600 respectively. that is so little. and uni? spend 2 to 4 years and lots more of money, to get that $200 more. the best part? you realised you’ve wasted yet another 2 to 4 years and the money you’ve spend on education?
we grow to only have more liabilities isnt it?

i love cooking and baking, but im not even a tiny bit of sure how things will work out if i go overseas and do pastry learning. i do not have the capital to do whatever i want.

im totally a slave under money. totally.

frothy milk latte

ive created my new blog and shall move over either in at the start of 2010 or once i graduate. (:

okay, maybe earlier.

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i suddenly miss you ):

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its only you walked out, on streets.
i saw all the pretty, massive, huge, gorgeous, beautiful Christmas decorations and Christmas tree and it struck me that its almost the end of 2009.
time flies, really. don you agree?
it was like yesterday when we were counting down to Christmas 2008 and a brand new 2009.
and now? before you know it, its the end of 2009. its like 339 just flew past with out you knowing. In just 26 days, its 2010. 20 days to Christmas, 23 days to me turning 20.
did i mention how much i dread festi-seasons now that so many of my friends are attached. (i just smiled to myself and some small voice in my heart told me to the hell with them) HAHA.
and 20. )): very soon, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25… 29, 30. yeah, before i know, i’ll be thirty.
okay, maybe not. (: i might be forever 22! heh. thats 2012 when the world ends

i guess 2009 has been a pretty good year for me?
i got my driving licence. i joined competitions, getting into the finals (thanks to all those wonderful people). i got myself an insurance package. i got myself an endowment package. i started exercising again (like after 3 years). i was rarely sick. and the list just goes on.
and im really thankful for whatever and whoever i have in my life. really. whether its a major or a minor part that you play in my life, you have definitely helped in me growing and learning in life.
im really sad that im graduating, the friendships made, and yeah, i really don know what i want and where to go next. ):

moments within moments

…Because sugar only taste sweet for that short moment it lasted in your mouth.

We crave. We lust. We reminise.
All just for that moment, for that void to be filled, all just for that itch to be scratched and for that thirst to be quenched.

We fall. We hurt. We fault.
All just for that moment, we lose our minds, we forgot our common senses, and we do things against our believes.

All just for that moment, it hit our minds that we’re getting too addicted to the game. We took one step back, we took two steps back. We walked apart, we fell apart.

All just for that moment…

Because sugar only taste sweet for that short moment it lasted in your mouth.

you still make me smile.

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Fate decides who walks into your life.

You decide who stays, who you allow to walk away, and who you refuse to let leave you.

YOU.
DECIDE.

when songs become meaningful…